I was looking through my one of my iPhone apps trying not to cry thinking this is not good, this feels wrong,
what am I going to do, what is happening, yesterday was the best and worst day of my life,
finally, what was going on stopped.
But not before I saw this:
I know way too much about nothing happening.
I’m Bipolar, having nothing happen, it is a place I have frequented the majority of my life.
About five months into my latest nothing I met some random strangers and decided to go along on an adventure.
It was about 10am and the woman who I met was extremely drunk.
I give meeting her the credit of being a blessing in my life… I gained perspective, that’s a blessing!
There is a concept known as the “Tipping Point,” which is often an innocuous event…
The Tipping Point: How Little Things Can Make a Big Difference, the book by Malcolm Gladwell, provides an idea of how things bubble along and then their importance grows, seemingly overnight
POINT: I have identified that woman as my tipping point, if I wanted to get real intellectual about I’d provide his thoughts on the bystander effect…
J/K
There is a reason you like to read blogs
Things bubbled along and she introduced me to the love of my life, at that point,
I had basically ended up, “in over my head”,
and something about him made the time it took to get her out of my life bearable.
That morning at a bar, without realizing, I ended my stay with nothing.
I was doing, “Something”
That lasted about two months and during that time I was embracing “Change”
I even quoted, “Change can come like a gentle breeze, barely noticeable in any moment,
but resulting in enormous changes over time. We don’t perceive ourselves changing much in any given day,
but can see that we look much different now than when we were first born. Gradual changes are the easiest to accept.
Change can come like a gust of wind, either pushing or knocking us off our path, or swiftly moving us forward.
This is a noticeable, “lucky break,” or “setback,” that we couldn’t have predicted, but can choose to go with it,
or try to get back to where we were before it came along.
Change can come in the form of a tornado.
Everything that was certain and thought to be secure the day before is now different.
A lottery win, a serious car accident, a pregnancy, a job loss, an unexpected death.
Life can never return to exactly the way it was, but it can either be rebuilt, or built entirely anew.
This is the most disturbing type of change, but it can also be the most rewarding. It is forever life-changing.”
~Doe Zatamata
What gets me the most is that I have been multi-tasking with “change” and” spiritual growth”.
I went as far as sharing and I quote,
“Love is the greatest energy on this planet and at the moment you need to ask yourself am I coming from love or fear?
Everything has sped up now so what you put out will return in tenfold as quick as lightning.
There is not time after the thought, emotion or event to ask was that from love or fear?
The energy of Love will have already been creating the wave patterns of energy to soon return the same to you.
Then you may wonder, why is this happening to me?”
~The blog post was, “Coming Only From Love,” by lesleyevans2012 on WordPress.com
The last two months I can now identify as the “Gust of Wind” style of change.
Within the range of 48 or maybe 72 hours,
“Everything happened all at once.”
The test, “my ass,”
EXAM question answer, which I will classify metaphorically as a short essay EXAM, Was the following…
“I will go home like you have asked,
I am madly in love with you,
Stop pretending you are stupid or asleep and face reality.
The Big Picture:
“Why are you crying?”
Completed with bullshit I used to support the conclusion that the answer was actually a simple question.
“Why are you crying?”
“Cultivating an active relationship with the divine is the essential ingredient to being able to receive and trust guidance when it comes our way.”
~My “Two Cents” on my May 21st post from my blog Spiritual Rumination
Why not?: http://spiritualruminations.wordpress.com/2012/05/21/divine-guidance/
Culminating with “8 things to Remember during the Storms of Life…” on May 23rd, …SAME BLOG
1. The Universe is in full control of the timing and intensity of your trials and destruction does against the laws of the Universe.
2. There is a specific purpose for your suffering which you will understand when you learn what it was meant to teach you.
3. This trial will prove to be profitable if you accept that you are powerless and have faith in a Higher Power.
4. Trying situations are opportunities for faith to prove genuine and grow stronger.
5. When you endure extreme pressure with unexplainable peace and joy, your spiritual connection to the Universe is strong.
6. Your difficulties are opportunities to gain perspective that allows you recognize bliss.
7. The Divine will walk with you through all trials offering guidance.
8. Spirit will enable you not only to survive but also to come out a conqueror
I have taken this test a few times before without any sense of awareness
I have admitted that this is not the first time everything has happened all at once,
after all,
I am turning 32 years old on the 29th of May,
I have calculated that it is approximately the same amount of time away from now as the average American work week.
On the 29th I will write a post, I will name it, “God Gave Me”
That will be my birthday present:
With full self-awareness, a healthy spiritual life, and accepting myself exactly as I am,
Knowing that it is okay that I am not perfect, but every single thing about me is 100% acceptable.
Realizing that many things are even more than just acceptable, they are wonderful!
I will share what God gave me when I finally, truly, honestly, embraced my life, and acted out of love.
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